Bald Reality
I’m a middle aged, menopausal midwestern mom with a chip on her shoulder about unrealized artistic potential. I have deep-seated insecurities about my ability to create “real” art and be a “real” artist. So, I use self deprecating humor to dodge any real discussion about my goals or vision. Also, I hate the word vision. I don’t have one, I just like to paint. Somewhere along the line I learned to feel better about my own abilities (and lack of education) by internally judging other amateur artists work with snobbery. I did this the most when I wasn’t actually doing any drawing or painting at the time myself. Ick. I own more than one fancy camera and I pretend to know how they work.
What I Thought I Was Supposed To Achieve To Count As A Real Artist and Valuable Human Being
I received my BFA from bladedah blah expensive art school and my MFA from another urban and urbane school far away from where I grew up. Though steeped in family artistic roots, I left my midwestern home for more exciting and interesting locales around the world. I have shown in NYC, Chicago, LA, and throughout Europe where I honed my skills in oil painting, photography and print making. Currently repped by gallery such-and-such in LA and fabulously dressed by so and so for every gallery opening. (That last part is all I really want).
Where I Want To Be
I like to paint. I’m growing my skills, and really enjoying watercolor. I grew up surrounded by creative art makers, hobbyists and doers that influenced my interest and knowledge of all sorts of art and crafts. Currently, I make paintings of open, natural places that I visit, landscapes and places that bring me mental peace. I use my photos for reference and my memory for expression. I make paintings in between raising two kids, working and having life-long treatments for stage 4 metastatic breast cancer. No, I don’t want to paint about that. I paint to escape that. I don’t want to sell a lot or have shows, not really, except to make people happy. I love to give paintings to people who enjoy them.