i said awhile back (October 2002 archives) that i knew moving (again) wouldn't solve my problems, that they always come with you..they'd just become "Euro-problems". well, i was right. its not the end of the world, but i'm feeling frustrated tonight. i know i can do this art thing, and i'm loving every minute of it....but...as you know, the first school didn't work out and the second is just a day and a half every other week..not enough. i'm searching out some other options later this week, in Cannes for example...i really need to get out of the house more...i'm using the little balcony as a studio of sorts, but it is feeling cramped as well. i'm dying for my own studio space..but how to get/pay for it? i can't get a job here yet (still trying to figure out the visa thing, which is a serious bitch, but i do have a new option, more on that later)..and even if i could, that would seriously cut into the time i need to develope my work. the work isn't really ready to sell seriously yet, so there is no money from that (aside from Aunt Anna's recent purchase of LTM1..thanks Annzie!)...its a giant hamster wheel going 'round and 'round..to nowhere!
forgive my rant, it's probably just PMS.